The Teekee Dream

Everyone gets down at times, this is nothing new


Even in Psalms 42 the words ring true



Why is it easier for some to stay up and optimistic?

While others let the things around her pull her to pieces



I was in a dark place, pulled one way then another

Try as hard as I may I could not get over



Then beloved sister recalled our brother, Johnny,

and the dream he shared with her that came from Teekee



There he was, our Teekee, in front of Johnny,

Jumping up and down smiling and laughing and yelling



"Enjoy life! Enjoy Life!"



That mental image should put a smile on the most despairing of visages



But as many who have walked that road are well aware

Once between the rails of despair it weighs down all laughter, all joy



The urge to let it take you beckons stronger than a lovers kiss

sweetly tempting you to death



Only one thing saves me or any of the higher powers creatures

who have been in despair, who continues to fail, who want to...



That is to say I will praise God

I will say "Thank you Lord, I want to follow you"



Then Wait

Because miracles come with a shiver of hair raising, tears welling,



Strange looks from strangers and true life lessons.

All while working at the gift God gave me in the first place!



Just seeing my little old people, sad but working,

doing my best and rewarded far more than what I gave to them



The little blessings came all day, but the Lord must have seen

I just was not receiving the whole lesson and knew drastic measures were needed



So the Lord sent me to a lovely little old lady, not my patient,

not her scheduled visit either but go I did



And with a little goldfish, a God loving family,

and two sentences the Lord blessed me and proved He loves us all



At the end of the visit I was picking the son-in-laws brain

I have wanted an aquarium and a few goldfish for so long



But the cons outweigh the pros at times of goldfish,

even with a fancy name for a carp



But standing on his steps this stranger, another child of God

said words that raised chill bumps and made my eyes well up with tears



"You have to do what makes you happy,

Enjoy life"



Bless him, he never said a word but just looked a bit puzzled

The home health nurse, on his front step, crying over a goldfish



And I could only say the obvious

"God works in mysterious ways, doesn't He?"



I was finally lifted up that night after a week of hardship

by my sister, my brother's dream, our Teekee's words



And a long time coming trust in the Lord,

I am grateful He never left, just patiently waited

Unworthy as I am, human as I am, weak as I am.

The Lord loves me and all of us...still.

Thank you Lord

Thank you Mary

Thank you Johnny

Thank you Teekee

I love you all